Fun. weekend part une.

Brad-Lee Manor; home of thousands of family memories, Peggy's beach,  a party boat, golf carts, guest rooms, Fun. times, and a wonderful weekend had by myself, my wife, and best friends..........sounds good right?! Well...............'TWAS!

 The gang (minus children and one member JAK) left after a grueling work day on Friday, packed up Harper (kayz's brand new, and AH-mazing ride) and headed over to the bay!!!!  We spent a two great days celebrating my wife's birthday, hanging out by the pool with some cold drinks, good music and delicious foods made by our lovely and caring hosts; The Bakers.  

The weekend started off with a fried-food bang! We stopped at the Dairy Queen in Easton, at my wife's request, and since it was her birthday weekend-fun.-time, we obliged. Did you know they served food?! Well not around here obviously, but they do in the Eastern Shore! A little back story, my wife is from the West Coast, and loves all things small-town. At first, I was NOT on board, but after having the  chicken tender basket with french fries, toast AND "homemade" gravy.......I jumped on it. Yes, did it murder my stomach? Sure! BUUUUTTT it was worth it, and it made my Bunns (that's what I call my wife) happy, and we will not be having that for another 8 years, that was the deal! The next stop on the itinerary was the oh-so-classy-and-extremely-cheap Wishing Well Liquors, where we shopped for all kinds of tasty beverages.

We made it to the bay house! Around 10 or so..........and then the PARTY BEGAN! We kicked off the evening with shots! And then I had one or three "Lo Hoatz Drinks" which are well.......dangerous. I kept singing "You get a whiskey drink, you get a vodka drink, you get a Lo Hoatz drink, and then your F*&#ing drunk" (To the tune of "I get knocked down" by the incredibly famous band Chumbawamba, THROOOOWWWW BACK! They had SO many hit SONG, yeah I meant just the one "song") and then the night got a little blurry..........FUN.....but blurry. I know it involved some night swimming in a scolding hot, hot tub, (freezing, the joke was it only worked during the day whenever Mr. Baker turned it on. NOT user error, just drunk error I guess, LOVE YOU KAYZ!)  I went to bed at some point, "early" by my party people's standards, you know around 1:30 or something, and slept great. Woke up the next day with my body screaming at me, "YOU'RE 30! WAIT YOU'RE ALMOST 31! WHAT WERE YOU THINKING! WATER WE NEED WATER!" So I stumbled downstairs disoriented and got me some water, and told myself, "Self,  this weekend is going to be a RAGER, and you're gonna like it!"

CUT TO- 11 am for ROUND 2! Except this time we "took it easy" since we were drinking the whole day. The ladies cooked a great breakfast, that included a basil tomato frittata, bagels, tea, donuts and orange cinnamon rolls. Yes, I ate it all. And no I did NOT feel bad about it, then it was POOL TIME! ALL DAY SON! Drinking under the sun, swimming, and LIVING -Side note,  sun screen is VERY important. Do not, repeat DO NOT for one second believe that just because you're of hispanic decent you can get away with just putting on a little. My shoulders will tell you different- There was a Jumping contest and all.  By "contest" I mean,  it was mostly silly jumps holding hands, it became a thing, followed by a series of attempts at back flip jumps off the diving board by yours truly, which just left me with a beat up and bruised back.............Proof you say? YOU GOT IT!

That lady there....She is the most fun, loving, and spontaneous part of my life. Before I was diagnosed with this thing, I would have NEVER wanted to show my a picture like this of myself, and so now I have adopted her philosophy in life which is "WHO CARES?" Honestly, all the little flaws, moles, extra pounds, or any insecurities you may have, no one cares about them, but you. Everyone has them and everyone hates themselves for them, we should never strive to be "perfect" instead be who you are. Don't be like anyone else, be YOU.  Life will pass you by if all you do is obsess over how you look, versus how you feel. Have good times with loved ones, dance like no one is watching,  get on a party boat, drink booze, eat artichoke dip (that happened) get sun burnt, use aloe, LOTS OF ALOE, have your slice of better-than-sex cake and eat it too! In moderation of course.   "Why does  the cake say Jenn is 73?  Well because that's all we could find, and 7x3+3=24! which is her age! Boom! Science!

"Delicious, fat, fried  foods?!  CAKE?! Drinking?!?!?!??! How dare you?!"   -Holier Than Thou McGee.

Listen up, HTTM,   Am I 100% proud of my body? No, and that is why I will continue and strive for a healthier me, rather than to kill myself trying to achieve a super ripped body that I will never have, I will focus on my health. And also, NO ONE ASKED YOU!


The Cast Wrap party was held at Guapos, where we enjoyed a few more drinks, and Mexican food,  another birthday Girl's favorite. (I'm working on it guys, ok? I KNOW!)

Look at that face though.....I will eat at a million Guapos and Dairy Queen's  

This weekend I was able to get out of my head and control my anxiety and sugar levels. Not every weekend will be filled with fatty foods and drinks, but when they come around I will enjoy them. Anxiety is something I am learning to live with, yet another "flaw" I wish I never had, but it is now part of me, and I must learn to deal with it, never let it define me. Hate it, sure, but then again, who cares? Life is worth living, and besides could you say "No" to getting away with these folks?

You COULDN'T!!!
AND YOU SHOULDN'T!

America, Accomplishment and Anxiety.

Hello Friends!

It is simply hard to believe that we have already celebrated the 4th of July for this year. It seems like just yesterday, we were ringing in the new year, making those break-on-January-1st-resolutions. All that aside, I celebrated America's Birthday with my family. You know the kind of family you pick, my best friends!

These people make my life something special, we spent the day having delicious food at Casa De Hoatz, we hung out with all of our favorite people, and then headed to the park to watch the fireworks with the kids. The kids took the picture, don't we look perfect? then they made us take one like this................"Make silly faces!" 

Nothing more American than cheese burgers, potato salad, ribs, beer, fat, fat, fat, fat, fatty-fat-fat foods! And yes my judgmental readers, I ATE IT ALL!........remember that Judgy Wudgy was a bear! 

July is filled with weekends of being super fat, and I love it! Yes, I have been keeping an eye on my health. I take my sugar levels about twice a day and they have been normal. I have not gained any weight (according to my doctor's scale, which has become  my new best friend, we talk all day every day) The fact is, I was diagnosed with this thing, and I was taken off medication because I worked hard at it. So if you only live once, as Jimmy Brooks says, then you must be able to treat yourself. (Jimmy Brooks is Drake; Amanda Bynes' vagina murderer, now come on Keep up!)

The summer is full of birthdays, America's, my friend's babies, Oliver and Jacob, my wife's, mine, and so on and so forth (I know I forgot a few, relax!) So far, I was only able to capture America's and Oliver's; more to come.....................in the mean time..............LOOK AT THAT LITTLE GUY! I love him so much!

In the midst of all the birthday celebrations, I had decided to apply for a new position at work. It is a long process, but the news have finally come in............I GOT IT! I will officially begin my new post as court room clerk at the end of this month. I am very excited, anxious, nervous, but very very excited. I have been able to achieve quite a few goals in my professional life in the past couple of years, Went from being a server to managing a restaurant, very very briefly, to breaking into the law firm game, and not working in the court room, I am very proud. (this covers the portion of "Accomplishment" in the title)

Which of course brings us to the "Anxiety" part of the program.   Yesterday I experienced one of the scariest most intense anxiety attacks of my whole life. I know I am a bit dramatic, but guys.........this was no joke. I usually go for  a walk when I sense the attack creeping its way in, and so I did the same yesterday. I started to feel a little out of it about an hour after lunch, so I kept trying to calm myself down, but instead the panic sunk in. I started to loose my senses, I felt like I could not hear anything, then I felt extremely dizzy and I started seeing black spots. At this point, I was all alone, and did not know what to do. I felt like I was drowning and dying all at the same time. Short of breath, disoriented I stumbled into a barber shop near my job where a lonely Asian lady sat, and I said "please help me! I think I need an ambulance" Guys, she look like she didn't understand a  word I was saying, I kept asking for help, and she wouldn't move, she kept looking out and had a scared face like "this latin man is going to rob me" I threw my wallet at her and asked her for water. I called 911, and incoherently gave them my location. I apparently hung up, I do not remember that, then walked back into work, dazed and short of breath, still not being able to see straight and feeling like I was  close to blacking out. 911 called me back and said the ambulance was outside. I went out to meet them still feeling like I couldn't breathe, or speak, see or hear. The EMT's were talking to me and put me in the ambulance to make sure I wouldn't pass out. They tested my sugar, and it had dropped low, which they say explains why I felt like I was dying. They advised that I should eat a cookie (SCORE) and to go see my doctor as soon as possible and discuss my options on how to control my anxiety. 

I met with my doctor today, and we talked for a while. She said that all my vitals are normal, and the reason for panic attacks is due to control. I have to learn how to control my mind, and tell it that we are not going to die! ("we" meaning me myself and my stupid over controlling brain) So now I am a diabetic with anxiety, I am here, I am scared and nervous and oh yeah..........ANXIOUS. I have been referred to a therapist, and will discuss my options with her, once we meet. I will keep you guys posted! Thank you for reading! Pass it along! Comment! and so on and so forth!