Much like Harry, I continue on my journey, it does not involve magic ( I mean, a little! I feel like an owl will drop my letter any day now! And of course I will be in Gryffindor, Duh) It involves, dedication, hard work, and the support from the love of my life and my amazing friends and family, to whom I owe my most recent success-wow I just got the chills you guys!- I guess if I wanted to compare, Diabetes is my Voldemort, only one can survive!..........................WHHHHHHHATTT?!
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One of the many many glamorous parts of being diagnosed with Diabetes is that every two months you have to get blood drawn. This past Monday I went for my routine visit. My favorite part of the process is sitting down with my Doctor, and her reiterating the, "you will die if you don't take care of yourself" spiel, immediately followed by the oh-so-familiar feeling of extreme guilt, thinking I am not eating well enough, or working out enough. Remember how I am a HUGE hypochondriac?! Well, while she is saying "Your blood pressure looks good, we haven't had to increase your medicine, you've lost weight," In my head I hear, "you are going to have a stroke. You are still too fat. If you aren't careful, you will loose a limb"-crazy right? Well........hypochondriacs have a hard time hearing the good things about our health, we just plain ignore it. Instead we replace the good news with the many "what ifs,'' those are a bitch. I am really working on just living, getting out of my head, and focusing on my triumphs, instead of negativity.
I have lost 30 lbs since last July, it has almost been a year, I know, but given my I-could-care-less-about-what-I-eat-I-hate-excercise phase, I think it is quite an accomplishment! As I mentioned in my last entry, I have really tried very hard to get back on track, a healthier lifestyle, for a healthier me.
I have been working out A LOT, these past few weeks, and my body hates it!
<---Does that look like the face of someone on the "runner's high"?! That's because it isn't!!! This is what it looks like for the first 5-7 minutes of the elliptical. Apparently this is called a "warm-up," to me it feels like "DYING." Well to be honest, it has become less time now where I feel like that, and more time actually enjoying the fact that I can do................THIS--------->!
That is almost 4 miles in 40 minutes, and for those of you that say "oh the elliptical is so much easier than the treadmill," Well, SHUT UP! It is super hard, especially when you're doing the Hill Climb Setting, it sucks, but my legs have never looked better, and I was able to do a 9 Minute mile yesterday, so yeah. This is what it looks like when I am done. SELFIE!!!!! I just wanted to make sure I could show you that it is no joke, if the elliptical was sooooooooooo easy, I would NOT be sweating like that!! Today I reached another small goal, I actually ran for 15 minutes on the treadmill! I have always thought that those outdoor runners are such a-holes, but in reality I am envious of their endurance, so I have challenged myself into becoming one of those D-bags who can run a few miles without collapsing. I will NOT lie to you, I felt like my calves were on fire, my whole body was screaming in discomfort. Full on poker face, I looked like I was a natural runner for those few minutes, while my body ached and "End of Time" by Beyoncé Played loudly in my ears. In my head I was screaming "I AM RUNNING! I AM REALLY DOING THIS! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!" In addition to my cardio, and at my doctor's request to prevent "flabbiness," I have added strength training, which means weights, which are much harder than cardio in my opinion, it is hard to tone! I will have to fill you in later on those, just know that I started on Monday, and I am so sore, I can barely move. But it is a good sore, an accomplishment.
Every morning after I work out, I come home, and Jenn is ready with our breakfast, God I love that woman! We usually have egg whites, some type of turkey sausage or bacon, or apple chicken sausage from Trader Joe's, a bagel thin, and Juice. NOT your sunny D type of Juice, we have started to juice vegetables, and use it as a multivitamin. It is tedious to rinse chop and juice, but my Jenn does it for us! The juice is not something you get used to right away, it has an acquired taste, but it is really good for you! I shoot it, Jenn sips it, I'm all about business. We juice Kale, Celery, spinach, ginger, cucumber, cilantro, parsley, lemon, lime, and half an apple. Yes, it tastes like dirt, at times.
Every now and then I take a bottle to work, if we make a big batch for breakfast, and drink it as my mid-morning snack. (side note, completely obsessed with Tervis) Other wise, I have a Green Apple, with some fat free cheddar cubes, in the morning, and some berries in the after noon.
The best part of this routine, is the fact that after my visit on Monday, my doctor reassessed my progress, and suggested that I may be able to stop taking my diabetes medication. When the words came out of her mouth, I thought, "Nah, that's probably not going to happen" As usual I had to wait a few days for the results. I am able to check them online, yet another thing I like about my doctor's office, and saw that there was a note saying. "You can stop taking Metformin, make sure to keep dieting and exercising, and we will test your levels in a few months :)" I couldn't believe it!!! I shared the news with all my CDCM's (Cool Diabetics Club Members, yeah I made it up! also it is me and all my sassy ladies from work) And their reactions were priceless! They are so supportive of me, and now I have more people making sure that I don't slip, especially when the donuts are flying on a Friday morning!
For peace of mind, I test my levels twice a day. As I have mentioned normal levels of BGL's (blood glucose levels) are between 80-120. I Tested 2 hours after breakfast, and it was at 96, and then only an hour after lunch and it was 110! After you eat, it is more likely for a spike, but mine were normal! I still can't believe that I can do this. As with any obstacle in life, at times you feel defeated, like you cannot go on. Again, it is ok to give in to the fear sometimes, otherwise it will eat you up. You just have to make sure that you don't let fear TAKE OVER, instead use it as fuel to get you to reach your goals, be your inspiration, but most of all your motivation.
Today, I am optimistic about my future, it was my first official day off medication, and it went well. I am finally feeling like I can do this, I can take back my life, and not become another sad statistic. I am very lucky, I diagnosed early, young, yes, but early.
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